Mark Camp

Mark camp was amazing.. I can't even begin to describe everything that went down this past week.

I can try to sum up the week though.

Ride to Sugar Pine = FUN! Singing Lady GaGa, Disney, Backstreet Boys in the car? how can it be more awesome than that! And we made good time too! We met up with people in Oakhurst and ate dinner. (AND I got an X-Wing toy at McDonalds earlier)

Mark II was hard... it was like bricks being dropped onto my head, Thanks God for letting me know a BUNCH of things all at once!! But it was a good thing too. I learned a lot about myself and I learned that I DON'T know a lot about myself too.. haha oh well That's what prayer is for!

There were so many things to apply I didn't know where to start.. that's why I've decided to try to "cut off" parts of my life that are filled with distractions. Such as facebook just to see how my spiritual walk changes and hopefully improves.

Other than that I want to be able to serve people more. In any way that I can without putting my own sanity at risk like I've done in past quarters haha

Free Time: yay sports!! and napping!! hahaha and of course talking to friends ^_^

That's all for now!

I've already realized how much more free time I have now that I've cut out facebook hahahah but then again I've also noticed that I fill it with playing cards online and reading books.. well i'm off the compy for part of the day at least~ hahaha

Talent Show: AMAZING!! So many talents in IV!! My friends and I did performed Sea of Faces with ASL :D AND we did a bunch of aikido techniques, that was awesome! I was actually terrified to be rolling around and doing falls on the rather hard carpet.. but yeah! I'm kinda proud of myself that I did. Thank you God for that brief moment of bravery or insanity! :)

Long week

Ever have one of those weeks that feels like it'd never end? This week definitely felt like that.

When was the last time I felt SO tired, SO upset, SO confused, SO stressed out, SO sad, SO hurt, but at the same time SO ... happy? No, that isn't the right word. Content? That's another dangerous word.. but closer. I don't even know how to begin describing how I've been feeling.

Why won't you say anything? Are you scared? Will I get hurt? I think I'd rather be hurt then to never know anything at all. Is something bothering you? Am I bothering you. Am I doing something that will hurt your pride? Your... sense of being? Am I threatening? Am I a hindrance?

Why did you have to do this? Why couldn't life just go on... as it had been? I don't understand. I don't know what to think. I almost wish I didn't know anything.

what am I supposed to do? How am I supposed to act? Should I even care? I'm almost at my limit...